Actually it is Great!

So here we are 50 plus years in. Some of us are caregivers not to our adult children but to our parents. God bless us, I say. After all, our parents brought us into this crazy mixed up world, the least we can do is aid them in comfort and see them to their final curtain.
I'm reflecting on death today because after 10 years of being without my parents and now 10 months without my brother, I must reflect.
Why? because that is what life allows us to do. As a teen and young adult, I was too busy playing with life, actually I still am playing, and enjoying every second, but in reflecting about life I see the great things in people. I do also see the great things in myself. What kind of person I have been and where I am in my divorced, single-life with great adult kids and amazing grandkids.
I also am able to set aside my ignorance as well as others; colleagues, friends, family members, me! But as you get older you realize what a waste of time it is to revenge, to feel sour, pissed off, angry, it's all unnecessarily a part of life.
Oh, don't get me wrong, I will be the first to holler back, flip you off, get the steam out. Nature calls for our bodies to get it out, but ultimately, someone can be educated to change, to develop other or better skills. I know I have and continue to do so all in the name of living, growing, experiencing.
That brings me to health. I want to keep my health, not in an obsessive manner, but in a natural manner. Our bodies cry when we over-work it, under feed it, or incorrectly feed it. I can feel the balance between hard work and hard work-out. Ahhhhh, that's the life I love to be a part of. So I'm keeping busy, hiking, joining exercise Yoga, Pilates type classes now and again.
And most importantly, the opposite of death is LIFE. So I continue to Meetup.com for my sanity and insanity, fun meeting all levels of people, fun to have choices to attend events or not, no pressure to meet people, just the purpose to live to relate to enjoy our moments until our last breath.
Finding the good in myself has been such an awesome adventure, I thank Mike Christensen for letting me go and for Kyle and Heather for letting me seek out myself so I could feel better about being a great mom at times to you both. My only purpose in life was to know you two. I'm enjoying every day with you all. I thank my mother for being a fun mom, beauty was within you and my dad for meeting her and coming together for all of us; Cindy, Debbi, Tim, Jody, me. I get it, I get what life is all about!
So actually life is great and continues to be. And whatever you do is a part of life's pattern, be good, be real, redeem, have fun...Don't give up because tomorrow is going to be so different. You'll see!